Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Whoa!!

     Okay, so I may have totally forgotten that I even have a blog for the last little bit - oops!! I am working on getting myself back into a routine with everything - obviously don't have that one figured out yet! :)
     We had a great Memorial Day weekend! We were able to go to a local dog show, hot air balloon launch and fireworks display - our Memorial Day tradition. Peanut loves ALL the dogs and seems to make it her goal to pet every dog there. So, she'll run from one dog to the next without even letting the owner finish their sentence! That was pretty much the way things went until she found it... the one dog she had asked and asked me if we would see. I insisted that there was no such thing as a pink dog. But, wouldn't you know it, she proved me wrong once again! She found a black poodle who had half her fur dyed bright pink! She spent at least 20 minutes petting that dog and letting me know that it was "the softest dog ever! If the owner would have allowed it, I'm sure she would have brought the dog home! Pumpkin, on the other hand was mostly interested in wrestling with his cousins! He still enjoyed himself - it was just a different type of enjoyment. I'm sure his favorite part was the stop at the toy store. At this particular toy store, they have all sorts of toys out for the kids to play with so he always loves a visit there! The hot air balloons were a treat as always. We got to see 2 launches and their balloon glow that night. It truly is a great family tradition that we all enjoy!
     On Monday, when we were thoroughly exhausted from all our fun the day before, we decided we needed to get our garden put in. We got a late start but worked steadily all day. We expanded our garden this year - we have our "small" garden - 10 feet by 23 feet - and we expanded our "big" garden to 30 feet by 30 feet. My husband would tease me everytime I said, I don't know if we are going to have room for this! We managed to get everything planted except the potatoes which hopefully will be planted in the next day or two - or as soon as the rain slows down! My husband and I agree that there are not many things (nothing we can think of right now) that are more beautiful than freshly turned soil with a beautiful green plant in it. Of course, a lot of our garden just looks like freshly turned soil since we planted seeds but still the starter plants we bought are absolutely beautiful! My husband's dream is to retire and become a farmer. Of course, with our 1/2 acre that would involve moving so it's a dream that is a little ways off in the future. For now, we make the most of the land we have and enjoy trying new varieties and new plants every year. This year we planted 10 tomato plants - 7 different varieties including orange, yellow, stripey and even, purple! We also planted squash, pumpkin (which are so much fun to grow!), watermelon, canteloupe (our first year to grow melon!), corn, radishes, eggplant (yum!), lettuce, snap peas, cucumber, peppers, broccoli, cauliflower, celery and beans. It's going to be a beautiful harvest! And I'm sure we will have PLENTY to share! I must say, this has become one of my favorite things to do and watching the garden grow has become a beautiful part of my summer! :) Oh - and just a side note, it only took us about 9 hours to get the garden beds ready and planted! LONG day but it will certainly be worth it in the fall!

Monday, May 13, 2013

This messy life...

     I an convinced that life is supposed to be messy. I have lived a large part of my life in a protected comfort-zone of solitude or living in community with a very few close family members/friends. I haven't been overly involved in anyone's life. When Peanut got sick, I pulled even further into my solitude comfort zone. Life was too hard so I withdrew into myself which has always been my easiest coping method. I have accepted that this is not how God designed us to live. However, finding the correct way to change that is a whole different story. I want to be involved but it's not as easy as just having the desire. I really struggle to be there for others when it's an inconvenience for me or makes me uncomfortable. So, I am working at prying myself out of my comfort zone. I am seeking ways to be more involved in my friend's lives. I am hoping to find a way to live outside myself. I know this is something that needs to change and I believe that decades down the road I will be thrilled I made the effort to change this part of me. It's time to roll up my sleeves and see how many different ways I can serve those around me.
     When I think about how we are meant to live, I immediately reflect on the life of Jesus. There were times when he withdrew to be alone and pray. I understand that part of him - that need in me is usually in hyper-drive! However, most of the time Jesus extended himself beyond what was comfortable, usual or what He desired. Although I cannot quote book chapter and verse, I recall stories when Jesus was ready to begin something different or move on to another town but he stopped because his heart was moved by the people he was surrounded by. His heart broke for those around him. His life had to be the messiest life I've ever heard of. He surrounded himself with outcasts and consistently ministered to those considered to be undeserving, immoral, or just plain unacceptable. He loved all men and served everyone with love and grace. It is His life I must strive to follow. It is His example that will prompt me to become a true Christ follower. He is the one that will shape me into the woman he wants me to be - a woman I can love.

Monday, May 6, 2013

ups and downs of T1

     Well, we are continuing to work toward the right medication dose for Peanut's diabetes. Lately, I feel like it's been all over the place. She will go from low 100s before breakfast to over 300 at morning snack time then back down to low 100s by lunch, 300s again at mid-day snack and tonight - a shocking 41 at dinner time. I can't figure out what is going on with this girl! She is just all over the place with her BG readings! It's a bit frustrating to not be able to point your finger at the culprit and then adjust it so that her readings can be in a healthier range. On top of that it just exhausts her. She becomes moody and weepy. Poor girl! It certainly is a juggling act to try to control her diabetes. I'm sure other parents of T1 kids feel the same way. It's frustrating and never ending. I am still working on learning to live with this and accept everything it means for our life. It truly can be a life-consuming illness. For now, we will keep working towards a healthier Peanut and trust that someday there will be a better way to manage her diabetes.